Search me, O God...

Jesus said: “You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, ‘You shall not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment.’ But I tell you that anyone who is angry with a brother or sister will be subject to judgment. Again, anyone who says to a brother or sister, ‘Raca,’ is answerable to the court. And anyone who says, ‘You fool!’ will be in danger of the fire of hell. Matthew 5:21-22

Here’s a question that calls for a brutally honest answer: Christian, do you ever doubt your salvation?

If we know our Bibles well we immediately reply: No! Salvation is a gift of God’s free grace which I have received by faith. My eternal destiny is secure, thanks to Jesus’ death and resurrection. Doesn’t Paul tell us that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1)? And doesn’t that include me?

Quite right, of course.

But wait a minute. Let’s take a few moments to read our way through Matthew 5:21-47. I’ve put just the first two verses of the passage at the top, but the whole section taken together has the effect of puncturing our confidence somewhat – all this talk of “judgment”, of “the fire of hell”, of being “thrown into prison” and not getting out until you’ve “paid the last penny”, of “gouging out an eye” or “chopping off a hand”. However robust our faith may be, it’s only human to start feeling slightly uncomfortable.

We need to keep in mind that when God chose to come to earth as a man he did so as a member of the Jewish people: the “King of kings and Lord of lords” was first “the King of the Jews”. He spoke as a Jew and thought as a Jew; his mind was soaked in Jewish culture and history, which was vividly colourful and often provocative.

This is part of why we find these strange threats hard to understand. “Raca”, for example, is often described by Bible-commentators as a general term of contempt (though “blockhead!” doesn’t quite do it in modern English!) and such an attitude might land you up in front of the local synagogue court because it reflects such an ugly, destructive attitude. But Jesus goes even further and says that saying “you fool!” (have you ever caught yourself sneering at someone you think is somehow beneath you? – that’s the sort of thing implied here) is even worse and puts you in danger of the fires of Gehenna, that is, hell. Gehenna? This originally referred to the Valley of Hinnom in Jerusalem, where the city’s waste was burnt by fires which were never allowed to go out. Jesus is, as it were, laying it on thick in order to make his point: that a holy God is eternally opposed to any kind of evil.

And the point of the whole thing? Very simply, to get us to see that what goes on in your heart matters far more than anything you actually say or do. Unjustified anger, for example (there is, of course, a kind of anger that is justified, even necessary), is tantamount to murder, and lustful thoughts are tantamount  to adultery.

These are sobering thoughts, calculated to get us stop and think about who we really are.

Anyone can put on a show. Oh yes, we can all learn how to be outwardly correct and respectable, how to be polite. But what is going on in the depths of our hearts? Contempt?… anger?… pride?… uncleanness of various types?... spite?... animosity?… However assured we may be of our eternal destiny, we have, as they say, some serious thinking to do.

My wife and I were reading recently the story of “the woman taken in adultery” (John 8:2-11). The religious leaders publicly display this woman for condemnation by stoning, quoting the law of Moses in justification, and asking Jesus’ opinion on the matter. They think they have “got” him, for how can he defend her without condoning sin? But, marvellously, that’s exactly what he does. He starts by ignoring them, as if hoping they will just go away, but “when they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them ‘Let any of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her’.” And what happens? Her accusers melt away, one by one. What a scene!

Yes, he didn’t ignore the fact that she had done wrong: “Neither do I condemn you” he tells her. But then he plainly tells her to “leave your life of sin”. How wonderfully he succeeds in blending no condemnation with no condoning.

I’ve just had a brain scan. It’s extraordinary what the experts can do these days, isn’t it, probing inside our very skulls? But… suppose there were a device which could scan not my brain but the true state of my soul, the real me inside? I’m not sure I would want anybody, especially God himself, to have a look at that! But God is in fact the only one who knows me to the very core of my being. The Psalmist prays “Search me, O God, and know my heart” (Psalm 139:23), a humble prayer, but not strictly necessary in the case of any of us. And it’s that serious truth that Jesus is wanting to press home in Matthew 5.

I started by asking the question: Christian, do you ever doubt your salvation? That wasn’t in order to raise questions about our assurance given as a gracious gift of God. Perhaps the main value of the question is to remind us that life is a deeply serious business as we live out our Christian faith in a tragically shallow and trivial environment. Yes, our salvation is assured; thanks be to God for that. But that doesn’t alter the fact that we must all stand before the judgment seat of Christ (2 Timothy 4:1). The question is not designed to raise doubts or to put the frighteners on us, as we might say. But just to remind us that we are called in Christ to be nothing but the best. If nothing else, it offers a sobering safeguard against any danger of complacency or arrogant entitlement.

Father, thank you for the high calling to which you have called me. Help me daily to match your great grace with a serious intention to be perfect, as you are perfect. Amen.